Whooshwhoosh

Our Sonoline B doppler arrived today! Amazing! We heard the baby's heartbeat at a strong 150-160bpm. It varied, and it kept moving lol.

I am just baby central these days aren't I? Well its pretty much encompassed my life lately, so I'll have to strive to talk about other things! BD and I have found ourselves rather shocked that 2010 has come to an end and here we sit: married, homeowners, careers, and soon to be parents! In 2008 when I met my wonderful husband I had no idea that all of this was in store for us...and so soon! And I am an eternally impatient being, so this is just perfect for me, but still a shock at times.

There are honestly times that I pull into our driveway after work and just stare in disbelief and recount our numerous blessings in our head, and say a small prayer of thanks. Then I go inside and again tell BD that we need to start attending church and studying the bible....again. I feel like this is something that is very important to us as a couple and when the little bundle is born, as a family. More so the studying of the bible than going to church. I am a firm believer that while it is all good intentions to simply attend church on Sundays, you aren't really doing yourself or your soul any good if you aren't learning and understanding, even developing, your own beliefs. The building you do this in, matters very little. Church is in the heart and soul.

All I need to confirm my beliefs is to hear that rapid whoosh whoosh of the miracle growing inside me. It is nothing short of miraculous, and I didn't realize that until it became something I wanted very badly, and something, do to the way my body runs, that I was very afraid we would not achieve.

With the New Year upon us, I think about what we need to do, to improve upon last year. With this baby on the way, the year promises to be full of joy. Some of the smaller things I would like to work on? Career, debt, school, health....but the more difficult things? The intangibles that are so difficult to pin down? I would like to learn something about myself that I have probably overlooked, I would like to improve my attitude and my temper, I would like to be more spiritual.

Ultrasounds thus far!

These are taken on my iPhone....sorry for the quality, I need to scan them in!

6 weeks 2 days

9 weeks 4 days

Abandonment!

So sorry for not keeping up with this better! The last 5-6 weeks of this pregnancy have been brutal unfortunately, but the bright side is I am feeling much better now! Love it!

I hope that everyone's holiday has gone well so far! One more long weekend and we are back to regular work schedules (UGH). I'm already scoping the calendar for our next holiday haha. Like BD says, I am always looking for a reason to be off work! Not that I hate my job, the days off are just so nice! :)

How far along? 12 weeks (Saturday)
Weight gain/loss: 2lb
Maternity clothes? Underbelly pants and longer shirts.
Sleep? Good, but never enough! I am constantly exhausted!
Best moment this week? Right now! Its a short week and I don't have to work tomorrow! I am so stoked about sleeping in!
Food cravings: Popeyes Mashed potatoes and gravy
Gender: Find out in February!
Belly button in or out? In
Movement: Not just yet!
What I miss? I missed wine at Christmas lol.
What I'm looking forward to: Our doppler coming in next week!
Milestones: Going to hear baby's heartbeat at home soon!

An arm and a leg!

In week seven our bean is growing arms and legs...among other things!

How far along? 7 weeks
Weight gain/loss: 1lb so far
Maternity clothes? Underbelly pants and longer shirts.
Sleep? Good, but never enough! I am constantly exhausted!
Best moment this week? Thanksgiving with friends and no m/s!
Food cravings: Ice cream and chocolate pie!
Gender: Countdown to February!
Belly button in or out? In
Movement: Cannot wait for this!
What I miss? Feeling normal I guess. Being able to breathe and function w/o nausea. But its totally worth it!
What I'm looking forward to: Our next appointment Dec 15!!
Milestones: Saw baby and beating heart on Monday!

Another turkey down the hatch!

Well not really, since I don't eat turkey! But another great Thanksgiving come and gone, and the accompanying four day weekend almost over. So sad!

I managed to get through all the cooking and baking without a single gag, and my short reprieve even held through the hectic Black Friday sales! Though BD did venture into the masses without me for the early morning sales! I was afraid morning sickness would strike and ruin our time! I woke up just in time to see BD and the brother in law hauling in a massive 55 inch LCD (Ummm..honey I thought we agreed on 46in?), a blue ray player and a video camera. Hell yeah for Black Fridays! We all napped and watched some movies until the boys felt rejuvenated and ventured to Kohls to continue our shopping journey! Did you see that Kohls ad by the way? It was like a freaking magazine!

Much parking lot stalking ensued for a spot to be found; at one point I thought poor BD was going to turn the truck around and head to the house! After finding our towels and waffle maker, I practically stole some picture frames that held 24 photos and we got in line. And waited and waited....and waited some more. I was ready to call put it all back (ha. pregnancy has NOT improved my patience.). We got out of there and trekked over to Best Buy for cheap as dirt blue rays and a PS3 for BD...

Now I wake up this morning feeling like crap again, but so thankful for two days where I felt mostly normal! BD is enjoying his massive TV and PS3 and I am enjoying laziness on my couch!

Vacations & Morning sickness!

Well our vacation to Texas may not have been much of a vacation (It was exhausting.) but it was good to see the family! You don't realize you miss home until you actually go home! Don't get me wrong, I love our life here, and all of our friends, but that yearning for home comes out of hiding every so often!

We told the family about our expected blessing while we were home. Now I know its very early to be telling people, but there was no way we could hold it in when we had our only opportunity to tell them in person! Everyone was overjoyed and excited, which was a great relief! (Not that we expected any different...the whole thing is just worrisome and stressful)

Annnnnd....back to work. Morning sickness started kicking my ass about mid way through our trip by the way, and it is still making my mornings (aka all day) miserable. Ick. But I know its all so worth it in the end, plus it won't last the whole time I hope! We went in for our first ultrasound on Wednesday and saw the gestational sac and the yolk sac! Despite the doctors arguing with me that I was 9 wks, the ultrasound proved me right that I am only about 5 wks! Silly doctors! Thinking they know my body better than me! Nonetheless, doctor ordered follow up blood work and an ultra sound on Monday! So far the blood work is looking good, and we will get more drawn today for comparison! Can't wait to see our little bean on Monday!

Everything between friends..

We have without a doubt, the best group of friends. I know that everyone says that about their friends, but I am really proud to have this great group of people that love us and are there for us. They are absolutely irreplaceable!

Friday, my work did the usual birthday spiel for me that they do for everyone else, only I ended up with two cakes since two of my co workers wanted to bring something for me! I felt loved haha. I had the awkward, everyone-is-staring-while-singing-happy-birthday moment. Like I'm not awkward enough on my own :)

Cleaned the entire house Saturday! I feel so accomplished! BD shampooed all the floors and cleaned the bathrooms too; he rocks! Got dizzy a few times, and winded a few times, had to sit a minute, but we got it all done. At this point I am doing my normal thing until my body says 'Take a break!' and then I sit for a while and come back to it later!

Had a GREAT early celebration for my birthday last night. We decided to tell our group that we are expecting, and the reaction was more than we could have imagined. They all seemed ecstatic...I think the terms "our baby" and "the group baby" were thrown around A LOT! Its good to know that even though we are entering another stage in our lives, that our friends are totally on board.

BD cooked a ton of hamburgers and chicken for everyone, we had chocolate cake and cheese cake, and everyone had a LOT of beer :) except me of course...I drank so much water last night I think I completely cleansed my system!

Did a WHOLE lot of nothing today, as we were just wiped from being up until 2am! Really looking forward to traveling to see family this week as well. Maybe we will make the big announcement, but I'm not sure just yet!

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways :)

Friday! I am so happy that its Friday. I am exhausted! Its hard work making a baby!

Massive housecleaning happening tonight! BD is going to help thank goodness. We are going to shampoo the floors and the stairs, I just want everything spotless. Party tomorrow and going out of town Tuesday, and there is nothing worse than coming home to a dirty house!

I am really glad to be busy though, because it keeps my mind off of wanting to buy a mega phone, climb to the highest building and scream to the world, ' WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!!!' Right now, that's exactly what I want to do, but I know that I should wait a little bit before telling everyone. Right now we've told our parents and siblings and a few close friends.

Well I'd best get to work! Have a lovely Friday!

Digital Tests Know Best

PIAC this morning....dipped the stick....1 min later? BFP! Finally! After six months with three cycles, only two of those being relevant(since one was annovulatory), we did it!

But BD did not trust the two tests I dipped this morning, an IC and an FRER! So I bought digitals on my way to work this morning and tested when I got home from work and a pregnant was spelled out clear as day 30 seconds! BD started flipping out shoving the test in my face haha. I was like, I told you so, I told you so :)

I love him, but the man is stubborn haha. Yay us! Baby G is on the way!

BF....?????

Tomorrow is the big day...for testing that is. Lets all hope for a big fat +++++++++

I'm more than a little nervous.

BD is encouraging as always and completely reassuring that we will simply try much harder next time if this is not our cycle. Goals for next cycle? Better timing. I'd like to see us hit every day around the illusive O date. So back to OPKs. So much for "relaxing" and "letting nature take its course"....but then I knew that was a crock of crap anyway. If you don't try, then how can it happen for you?

I didn't mention this morning, b/c I was in a hurry, but my sweet BD dropped 8 lbs last week! I am so proud of him! He gained back a pound or two on his cheat days this weekend, but over all he has really done so well! Our neighbors (some of his longtime military buddies) are going to move an extra TV to our basement and they are going to start their P90X journey sometime this week. Now, me??? Have I started my running program yet? Uhhhh....no. After I find out whats going on as far as BFP or BFN, I will be on the running trail and on my way to a 10k in the springtime! I'll get there..I promise :)

Tonights dinner:

Beef and Squash Stir Fry

1.5lb of fajitas beef
2 zucchini (bite size pieces)
2 yellow squash (bite size pieces)
1 bell pepper (bite size pieces)
Tony Chacheres or creole seasoning
salt
pepper
Worcestershire sauce

Season meat and drizzle with W. sauce. Transfer to wok and cook thoroughly. Toss in veggies and add W. Sauce to taste. Cover and allow to cook until veggies are fork tender.

Goodnight readers!<3

Countdown to Texas!

Only one week until our trip to Texas to see the family. It has been emotional ups and downs with the whole planning of this trip. It makes me hate going home, and quite honestly, that really sucks.

You try to make everyone happy...in the long run you should be making yourself happy, but its pretty difficult when everyone is trying to pull you in six different directions. Its our first year dealing with this though, so I am hoping it will get better as the years go by. One day maybe we'll be pros at this!

Made us a big pot of low carb beef stew last night, and here is the recipe:

The amounts in this particular recipe are VERY adjustable to suit your needs. I made a HUGE pot last night!

1lb of Stew meat
1/2 yellow onion (chopped into large pieces)
1 can cut green beans
3 medium turnips (chopped into bite size pieces)
2 cans rotel
1 pkg fresh mushrooms (sliced)
3 celery stalks (diced)
1 small head of cauliflour (divided into bite size pieces)
1 small bag of baby carrots (cut in half)
Pepper
Chili Powder

In a large pot, add onions, celery, mushrooms, pepper and chili powder; turn on high to get water close to boiling. While water is heating, season meat and chop veggies. As water starts to simmer add meat. Allow meat to cook through, then add turnips, cauliflour, baby carrots, and rotel. Allow all ingredients to boil until all are fork tender. When everything is tender and cooked, add green beans and allow to simmer on medium so flavor can soak in.

Enjoy!

Losin carbs...errr weight

BD is trying to lose some poundage. This, in itself, is a sensitive subject. You ladies out there with hubs trying to diet know just what I am talking about! But I am trying to do everything I can to help him to reach his goal! So since he is cutting carbs at this initial stage of his diet, that means giving up bread, potatoes and rice in Gigi's house..eep! So I will share with you some lower carb recipes that I have come up with!

Enjoy!

Somethings Fishy! Scramble

Makes 2 servings

4 eggs
1/4 onion diced
3 large slices of mushroom diced
1/4 tomato diced
4 oz Smoked Salmon diced
Olive Oil
Bblack pepper
Chili powder

Sautee veggies in a drop of olive oil until softened and browning. Add smoked salmon and simmer 1 min. Crack eggs into small bowl and stir in black pepper and chili powder. Pour eggs into pan with simmering mixture. Scrape and turn eggs until fully cooked. Enjoy!


Veggie Lovers Scramble

Makes 2 servings.

4 eggs
1/4 onion diced
3 large slices of mushroom diced
1/4 tomato diced
1/4 bell pepper diced
Olive Oil
Bblack pepper
Chili powder

Sautee veggies in a drop of olive oil until softened and browning. Crack eggs into small bowl and stir in black pepper and chili powder. Pour eggs into pan with simmering mixture. Scrape and turn eggs until fully cooked. Enjoy!


Meaty Men Scramble

Makes 2 servings

5 eggs
1/4 onion diced
3 large slices of mushroom diced
1/4 tomato diced
Thick slice of ham diced
Sausage diced
Olive Oil
Bblack pepper
Chili powder

Sautee veggies in a drop of olive oil until softened and browning. Add ham and sausage, simmer until browning. Crack eggs into small bowl and stir in black pepper and chili powder. Pour eggs into pan with simmering mixture. Scrape and turn eggs until fully cooked. Enjoy!



Cabbage Roll Ups

Makes 8 servings

1 lb ground turkey
Can of stewed tomatoes or cook your own
Small can of tomato sauce
Half an onion
Small/med head if cabbage
8 large leaves of cabbage seperated
Half a cup of shredded cheese
Toothpicks

Preheat oven to 375. Place large cabbage leave into pot of water to boil. Remove when softened enough to manipulate. Saute diced onions with handful of shredded cabbage until tender and lightly browned and remove from pan. Brown ground meat seasoned with black pepper and a dash of chili powder. Add in cabbage and onion mix. Stir in tomatoes and half can of sauce and simmer about 5-10 min. Arrange cabbage leaves in pan for filling. Fill each with mixture and top with a small amt of cheese. Fold cabbage around filling and secure with toothpick. Pour remaining sauce over each roll. Bake about 8 minutes.

Some pictures for you...

My brother and I while I was home for my grandmother's funeral.

BD & I at his birthday celbration

Backyard of new house!

Our pretty front yard! (I'll have to post pics of what we've done out here)

And in honor of our recent anniversary, BD and I, first dance. <3

A fool for fall...

Had to take somewhat of a break. Turned out longer than I thought it would be!

Finally made a visit to the doctor and my last cycle was ended with Provera...oh joy, an annovulatory cycle.

We are now in the 2ww again and hoping for the best.

We are in the new house now, and its fantastic! Its so nice to have a place that's your own! Sometimes when I pull up in the drive way I want to pinch myself to see if its real! I just can't believe we own a home! Its been a lot of work though! The yard work is fun, its great to have a yard period! The dogs certainly love it! I painted our bedroom in golds, it looks so warm and rich, I love it! Now if I could just get motivated to paint the other rooms in the house! I still need to get the bathrooms and other two bedrooms painted. I hesitate on the one that will be the nursery, because I can't help but hope we might be looking at doing a special paint job in there soon....

BD is on a low carb diet as of Monday! Good little wifey that I am I have been cooking him breakfast and dinner everyday and making sure he has foods he can eat! I am so proud that he is doing this! He is going to start an exercise program soon as well! I am eating more calorie conscious and will start running this week. My goal is to be able to run a 10k by next spring! We'll see. BD wants to lose about 40lbs (to get back to his Marine Corp weight).

Thats a pretty good update for now, I will be back to blogging more frequently now :) Much love to anyone who takes the time to read this!

Blog-cation...

that is all. You will be returned to your regular programming soon.

When I have time!

Home buyer hoopla!

We got a GREAT phone call a few days ago! But you are going to need a little back story.

When we looked at the dutch colonial, we were already under contract on another house. Oh for shame right? Well we started looking at houses back in April, not thinking we would find anything very quickly. A couple weeks went by and a house came on the market next door to some friends of ours in a nice neighborhood. We decided that it wouldn't hurt anything to look at it, it had a lot of things on our wish list included, so off we went! The house was a 3 story colonial with a walk out basement, a deck, and a big front porch. And we fell in love with it. And we put an offer on it at our realtor's recommendation. But the catch was....it was a shortsale.

We waited ALL summer for our dream house with no word from the seller or the realtor selling the house. Not a peep. Not a movement either way. So we started looking at houses again. Even our realtor suggested we keep our options open. We found a couple houses we thought we might like to put an offer on so we had our realtor draw up the papers to release us from our contract. When she called she found out the sellers were filing bankruptcy and it could take months longer to even get close to approval and it was likely that the house would end up in foreclosure. We signed the papers with a sigh and moved on. We put an offer on two different homes that were shot down before we found the dutch colonial. The house was great, renovated from top to bottom. The owner accepted our offer with minimal haggling and we set off on our journey to closing as mentioned previously.

Now, two days ago, my husband called me at work to tell me he just got a very interesting phone call from our realtor. I was thinking it probably had something to do with the home inspection we had just done, because the seller was hassling us about making some repairs on the house that it really needed. (Namely the roof needed replacing and some of the electrical outlets did not work.) NOPE! The short sale had been approved and the sellers were offering us our original contract! Apparently they held off on signing the papers that released us in case the bank approved the sale in time to give us a shot at it. It meant (since we signed April 28 and will close September 20) that we will still be eligible for the $8k. Not to mention we are getting the house we really wanted in the first place! So with the roof and electrical problems on the dutch colonial, we were able to get out of that contract, and the sellers of the 3 level shredded the papers that released us from the contract! We set a closing date of September 20 and we are on our way!

1 month 1 week until we close on our dream house next door to our friends and start redecorating!! Yay! Everything works out for the best! Love it!

Weekend spectacular!!

I couldn't be happier its Friday, even though it is Friday the thirteenth, so everything should be going wrong..it means this week is over.

So, for some reason I have not been myself this week. Maybe its good old AF coming back from her nearly month long vacation, but who knows or maybe I am just tired, but I need a beer like crazy so that is how I am going to start my weekend. With beer and good food, and a date with BD.

We are moving forward on the process with the house, however I can't really say its just rolling along smoothly. We had the house inspection this week and well let me tell you the house we fell in love with isn't so perfect :) but there isn't really anything seriously wrong with it either! Nothing that's a deal breaker at least, though now we enter the fun and fantastic negotiations with the seller trying to get him to make some repairs.

I can't wait to get in there and paint the walls, move in furniture and let the dogs run wild in the yard! Its going to be a trip. We got some big boxes this week to start packing!

Can I just say though, that this week, I miss my horses...

Weekend spectacular!!

I couldn't be happier its Friday, even though it is Friday the thirteenth, so everything should be going wrong..it means this week is over.

So, for some reason I have not been myself this week. Maybe its good old AF coming back from her nearly month long vacation, but who knows or maybe I am just tired, but I need a beer like crazy so that is how I am going to start my weekend. With beer and good food, and a date with BD.

We are moving forward on the process with the house, however I can't really say its just rolling along smoothly. We had the house inspection this week and well let me tell you the house we fell in love with isn't so perfect :) but there isn't really anything seriously wrong with it either! Nothing that's a deal breaker at least, though now we enter the fun and fantastic negotiations with the seller trying to get him to make some repairs.

I can't wait to get in there and paint the walls, move in furniture and let the dogs run wild in the yard! Its going to be a trip. We got some big boxes this week to start packing!

Can I just say though, that this week, I miss my horses...

The shit frosting on our cake weekend...

We had a GREAT weekend! Bowling was awesome Friday, good time with friends, and then grilling last night and hanging out was great too!

We were being lazy this morning, laying around, looking at bathroom designs for our new house to be. We cooked breakfast late, and were going to venture out to Best Buy and World Market around one. So we head outside to get in the car....joking about not remembering where we parked because we stayed out so late talking to friends at their house.

I'm looking at my car, thinking something looks weird. Well yeah, generally something looks out of place when the entire driver's side window is busted out and there is glass everywhere. SO, someone broke in the Malibu last night to steal a 5 year old crappy Garmin. WTF. My first thought is (haha), WHY DIDN'T THEY JUST STEAL THE DAMN CAR??????

(In case I haven't mentioned this before...I hate the Malibu, it gets me where I am going, but its falling apart on the inside.)

So here we go into this long process with the insurance company, getting a rental, getting the car looked at, calling the police, taking off work tomorrow, UGGGHHHH.

All I can think now is this BLOOOOOWWWS.

PSA:

Its official!

I was just talking about hoping that our offer would be accepted, AND OUR REALTOR JUST CALLED!!! They accepted our offer and we close September 23!

That is all!

It just occurred to me...

That I haven't posted a thing about our TTC journey...I promise I will do so more in the future, but here's a tidbit of our current frustration. (mine that is..)

I am currently at CD40, with no sign of my dear friend, and no BFP. My chart puts me at 20DPO, but I just don't know that its right...its too unclear this cycle. But we press on. Sometime this weekend I will test just for my weekly check, but I guess at CD60 I will call the doctor and see what she says about it. Hey the optimistic cheery side of me is like 'oooo maybe we are pregnant..' but the pessimistic gray cloud side of me is like, 'shut up you goofy bitch, there is no way in hell!'

But thats where we sit. Pregnant ladies EVERYWHERE these days, but its ok, because I looovve babies! And I just found out one of my friends is also TTC so its kind of cool to have another person that relates to the whole situation!

A hunting we did go...

Two times this week! AGHHH. But the good news is we found another house that we like! Thank you insane housing market for flooding the market with houses every week....

We found an adorable dutch colonial bi-level on over a quarter of an acre. Its been totally renovated and already has a fence. I think our dogs will love it, and I've already got the rooms all picked out in my head! Now if the realtor would call us and let us know where our offer stands so we can move forward or negotiate! I will be glad when we move into a house and we aren't so busy looking all the time, or crammed into our little apartment. I don't know why I feel like it will be so much easier to keep a bigger house clean, but I can't help it. At least we will have more space!

Aside from house hunting craziness work has been ridiculous lately, but I love it, because it makes the day go by so quickly. Though I do find myself dreaming about work sometimes (ha). BD has been great with helping keep up with the house lately which I love, because we have both been exhausted with work, the house hunt, TTC, and keeping up with friends.

So on with the weekend please. It looks to be a promising one, even though somehow I managed to miss my niece's birthday this week, and I won't be able to make her 2nd birthday party this weekend...I feel pretty bad about that! But we will find time to go shopping I'm sure! Bowling on Friday night should be fun, I haven't bowled in years so I will be posting some probably hilarious pictures, and grilling out Saturday!

Home is where the heart is..

Well my heart just must not be in it...or maybe our realtor's heart is not in it..I don't know, but I am blaming it on someone! 3 GOOD offers on 3 DIFFERENT homes, and nothing to show for it.

Now I know that the first offer we made in April was a short sale and we knew that it could go either way....they accepted our offer, but neglected to let us know they were filing bankruptcy which pretty much halted the process...The next offer we made was on a beautiful renovation. We made a good strong offer and asked for closing help. This particular home was in a nice neighborhood, but not the best of neighborhoods...you know what I mean? For example, there were two houses in particular on this street that really ( I mean REALLY ) bugged BD. One had an eyesore of a shed in the back yard ant the other had some siding that was in need of repair. So when the seller countered and only wanted to give us half the help on closing that we asked for....we declined. Even our realtor said the man was crazy. The house was on the market 3 days. If I were selling a home...I feel like I would be flattered to have someone come in and make me an offer at list price with in three days of it being listed. But nonetheless we made an offer on yet another promising prospect...and this one didn't even counter. Since our realtor talked us into putting an offer on the house mentioned just previously...we didn't get in first on this house and our offer was too late.

Home buying is a frustrating, infuriating, exciting, wonderful, painful process that I recommend to couples everywhere.

Rotten Apples!

They say there is a bad one in every family? We've got some rotten ones people. I am just disgusted. That's all I can say right now. It sickens me.

Stability..

some people have it some people don't. Some people sock money away for a rainy day ( or just to be sensible..) while some people spend every dime. Reasoning for the latter? You can't take it with you when you die.

BD and I are more of the save save save variety. We scrimp and save everything we can. And I don't just mean because we are buying a house. I've always been a little bit of a tightwad. I have to talk my self into buying socks. I'll put them in the buggy, take them out...put them in the buggy, take them out...put them in the buggy, say I am going to buy them, and when I get to the register I put them to the side and I don't buy them. Buying groceries? I know we need food to live, but when we get to the register, I try to avoid looking at the total. It just bugs me to spend so much on something you literally flush down the toilet (ha).

That being said, we still like to have a lot of fun, and we do. We just save a quarter before we spend a dime! We go out to bars, host parties, attend parties, go shopping, attend events and concerts and baseball games...you name it! We love to get out. Which presents another problem:

We are always booked on the weekends! :) But that is a good problem!

Blogging at the beach

Vacation Sschmacation...

We are at my brother's in VA Beach...just relaxing and hanging out. Its been another tough week for our family. My sister in law lost her uncle this week, and my brother lost his grandpa. There is just too much death right now. So we are keeping my brother company and his spirits up since he can't travel right now. (He had back surgery a couple weeks ago...)

I haven't been more glad for a freaking Friday...(I say that now, but I'll probably eat that later..)

I know he had to go, but I hate BD being out of town. But I put on my big girl panties and and dealt with it. Didn't get much sleep because I am a big weiner, but hey I made it!

I was worried (selfishly I admit...) that our TTC journey would be interrupted this lovely month, however by some stroke of luck I ovulated early and we are on day 8 of the two week weight. BD is as excited as me about this and is convinced his super sperm has gotten me knocked up. Maybe so. Maybe not haha. Silly man.

Dear sleep....Where the *(&^*&^#$^) are you?????

Am I the only freaking person who can't sleep when their husband is not home?? I haven't had a decent nights sleep since Thursday! Other than that the week is off to a banging start I suppose. Its been a little crazy at work this week and its only Tuesday.

Guess what awaited me when I came home today? No guesses? A snow storm of paper on my living room floor. What the hell dogs?! And what was the paper? The menu off the fridge to our favorite Chinese takeout. Damnit. That bad? Well its not all. I am changing in our room, and Duncan is slinking around with his head low...I thought he was upset because I had yelled at him and Forrest so I called him up on the bed. Boy was I wrong. All of the sudden I hear that horrible sound that all dog and cat owners dread....

Ooooomppfff Oooooommmpfff Ooooomppfff BLLLEEECCCCHHHHHH

Cue foamy nasty vomit on my carpet. Lovely. Out we go.

After the vomit fiasco its been a pretty calm evening. Hoping to get a solid nights sleep tonight. I hear EVERYTHING when BD is not home. Every little bump, scratch, voice....and I am up checking the locks on the door, or at the very least glancing at the gun on our dresser for reassurance...

Cheesed off chicken..

It's what's for dinner. Easiest chicken dish ever!

Boneless chicken tenders or breasts (thawed)

Favorite BBQ sauce (We use one that family sends us from TX)

Sliced deli style cheese (I use pepper jack)

Shredded cheese (I use fancy mexican)

This is an easy dish that you can make out of very little! If you choose spicy toppings like we do, keep the seasoning simple! Salt and pepper will do the trick! Then line your chicken breasts/tenders in a pan. Drizzle with BBQ sauce of choice, don't drown it. Cover the chicken with your cheese slices and bake for 30 minutes at 400F. When the timer goes off sprinkle heavily with shredded cheese and turn off the oven. It will only take a couple minutes for the cheese to melt, but I usually use this time to finish up the side dishes!

Enjoy!

Doors and windows.

Life is funny. Here we are trying to start a new life, and meanwhile a member of the family quietly slips away. Putting BD on a plan this morning was hard given the circumstances, but things being the way they are I just couldn't go with him.

I would be lying through my teeth if I said that I wasn't upset about it though. I need to be there for him and I can't. Selfish extra reason? Can't TTC if BD is not here! Probably out this month, but I'm okay with it and so is BD.

So I have breakfast with a friend, my first trip to Silver Diner (AWESOME!), and then head home. Not that I've had a productive day or anything, but hey I've enjoyed my day to myself. Snuggled the dogs all day. Cleaning top to bottom now, but that's pretty much the excitement of my day.

If one door closes? Look for a window.

Hell Week.

Lets recap quickly, as I don't like to dwell on the past.

Monday

• Dentist appointment that reaffirms my hatred of dental work? CHECK.
• TMJ pain at a maximum? CHECK.
• BD coming down with a sinus infection/cold? CHECK CHECK.

Tuesday

• BD's Grandpa has decided he does not want to live anymore. He has suffered for two long years with little relief. The sadness is just overwhelming in our house. BD is beside him self with pain.

Wednesday

• Two weeks to live. Plans start rolling for BD's trip to Texas.
• Why the hell does my jaw still hurt?

Thursday

• Bad news shouldn't come on Thursdays...but BD's grandpa passed away at 10 o' clock this morning.
• Left work early thinking I would console BD? Nope. Got home and he's still at work. Thank God for my strong optimistic husband.
• Bought plane tickets for BD. We just can't afford for us both to go and it kills me that I won't be able to be their to support him. DISLIKE.

Friday

• Packed and ready to go. Flight at 7am in the morning.
• Chinese food and a night on the couch watching TV?? Perfect farewell dinner..

WTF Are you?

Since you were so polite....Let's just call me GiGi, and we are going to call my husband BD (funny huh? You TTC ladies will get that joke...) So in the daily lives of GiGi and BD we find little adventures and honestly sometimes a lack of adventures. We are TX transplants living in the DC metro area!

BD and I are currently in our second cycle of TTC and finding that it is an illuminating journey that neither of us thought would be so educational. I've learned more about my body than I could have ever imagined. I want a baby more than I can express in words, so you will probably hear about this often. We are also in the middle of a short sale! OH JOY! So basically our life is a waiting game right now.

Last but not least I would like to introduce two stars of our lives, Duncan and Forrest. Despite what people may say, or you may think, these two are NOT dogs, they are our furry little children. That being said Duncan is a black labrador, and Forrest is a rat terrier mix.

I often find myself musing back on things in life that just make me laugh and realize that they weren't nearly as dramatic as I thought they were at the time. So let's hold hands get in the sharing circle and...*cough* I can't even get through that with a straight face. Anyway, I hope you enjoy my blog, and if you do not, well.....don't read it!