I am just baby central these days aren't I? Well its pretty much encompassed my life lately, so I'll have to strive to talk about other things! BD and I have found ourselves rather shocked that 2010 has come to an end and here we sit: married, homeowners, careers, and soon to be parents! In 2008 when I met my wonderful husband I had no idea that all of this was in store for us...and so soon! And I am an eternally impatient being, so this is just perfect for me, but still a shock at times.
There are honestly times that I pull into our driveway after work and just stare in disbelief and recount our numerous blessings in our head, and say a small prayer of thanks. Then I go inside and again tell BD that we need to start attending church and studying the bible....again. I feel like this is something that is very important to us as a couple and when the little bundle is born, as a family. More so the studying of the bible than going to church. I am a firm believer that while it is all good intentions to simply attend church on Sundays, you aren't really doing yourself or your soul any good if you aren't learning and understanding, even developing, your own beliefs. The building you do this in, matters very little. Church is in the heart and soul.
All I need to confirm my beliefs is to hear that rapid whoosh whoosh of the miracle growing inside me. It is nothing short of miraculous, and I didn't realize that until it became something I wanted very badly, and something, do to the way my body runs, that I was very afraid we would not achieve.
With the New Year upon us, I think about what we need to do, to improve upon last year. With this baby on the way, the year promises to be full of joy. Some of the smaller things I would like to work on? Career, debt, school, health....but the more difficult things? The intangibles that are so difficult to pin down? I would like to learn something about myself that I have probably overlooked, I would like to improve my attitude and my temper, I would like to be more spiritual.
